it's been a long, strange california week. i've actually only been here since ten on wednesday morning, but i was awake for the first thirty or so hours of the trip (give or take a cat nap on the plane); new york is far away. at my grandfather's funeral in los angeles, i saw my mother's side of the family (not my mother, but that's another story) for the first time in, say, six years. i won't be seeing many of them again for a while, i think.